Right now, I’m feeling a strange mixture of horror, sadness and regret all at once. Its odd how things can go so wrong in a span of an hour but I guess I should have seen it coming. I have an idea of what went wrong, but I’m not going to elaborate. Its a bit unpleasant to the ears.

I feel so sick right now.

I mentioned a few months ago about running away. About how it seemed like the most logical answer to all of life’s problems. I guess we all are stuck in the trap we set for ourselves long ago. How we carry ourselves. Who we talk to. How far we allow a problem to get out of hand. They all determine where and who we are in life. Figuring out how to deal with the current predicament is all part of bloody life. There more we runaway, the more aggravated a problem becomes and then we’ll just keep on running for the rest of our lives. I think I understand now. I’ve taken too many things for granted.

I want to do the right thing now.

Put that on my epitaph.